Friday, July 16, 2010

LETTER #23 & LETTER #24 & LETTER #25

does this mean the last person i locked lips with, or someone i pecked on the cheek? or either? will i guess the last person i kissed was my mom - on the cheek.

this is kinda stupid because ive already written her a letter in letter #3. but, i shall ad abit more as recent events must be taken into account(:

Dear mom,

thank you for your love and commitment. i love you. thank you for giving out so much for me when it came to my 18th birthday. thank you for pulling out every muscle you could to help me make it a success and enjoyable. your back hurts now, especially the few hours later - so much that you couldnt even walk the next morning, because of your case of osteoporosis from over working, im sorry. and yet, you took me to guitar lessons because you know how much i love it. i wish the people who didnt come to my bbq saw the effort you put into my celebration, i wish people can acknowledge your work in preparations to feed everyone that came. they do, the people that came. i do and i will always remember it. i love you, mom. i forever will. thank  you.

♥ your daughter, moini

there are too many people who have supplied me with many fantastic memories that i am just going to write this in general.

Dear the person people who gave me my favourite memoryies,

omg there are too many favourite memories and these memories are naturally caught on camera. you guys are awesome. thank you for giving me these precious memories for me to look back on to help me get past hard times where i cant see the light of day anymore. thank you for those flashbacks to where we were altogether where existed a form of bonding and strong friendship that could never be broken. this security and certainty flows from the recounts within, and i believe this could may as well be a source of motivation (maybe) and the reassurance of always knowing someone is going to be there. even though sometimes there cant be anyone there to be there for me, but i can always have memories that will bring everything back and to realise maybe its better to not have you guys there so you dont experience my pain and to be dragged into whatever im in. thank you for these memories to understand and interpret friendship. yes there are too many memories and there will forever be more. however this is only high school memories, people say they dont last, but for me, i hope they do.

♥ moini

ok, as much as i dont want to sound self centred, i think i am going through a pretty bad time at the moment. hsc, people starting insignificant things that shouldnt even be started because its so immature, hsc, my anxiety towards my work at school, my grades, expectations and everything else that would gladly like to crash on this stupid list. LOL

Dear the person who is going through the worst of times,

therefore, dear myself, i am quite ashamed of you. i wish you could be as smart as other people, i wish you could catch up and work on same standards and marks as your friends. yes, i know sometimes you say youre lazy, and sometimes you are, but most of the times its because you dont think you cant achieve what you want because most of the times, no matter what and how you try, you cant get what you want. grades, friends, ideal body and expectations of parents. because of this you cant even have fun, then again how can there be fun when youre constantly brooding over these problems. solve them. i swear ill slap you into the next century if you dont get your obstacles straight. you want to be a tv presenter, you start setting your self straight and try harder. i know it sounds easy to say, but you have to have this, dont shame yourself more. or else you would be destroying me because you are me. 

♥ yourself, moini

6:04 PM

the days.