Sunday, July 11, 2010

LETTER #17 & LETTER #18 & LETTER #19

Dear friend from primary school,

WHY DID YOU STUFF UP MY SELF ESTEEM IN PRIMARY?! because of you, i was merely in forth grade when you began to make my life hell. why did you have to make me feel fat, make me feel like a lard bucket in my childhood? honestly, i didnt even know people couldve been that mean then. and what else did you do? always left me for the more popular people. i constantly had to sit in the playground behind toilets or in the corner of the fields because i had no friends because of you. it was YOU who started to draw attention to my body, appearance and my sorry weight and encouraged the teasing. i wasnt pretty enough for you, i couldnt be your popular friend, i couldnt give you the status you needed to be a prefect. yet you came to me when you didnt have anyone else, and me being soft let you come back to me. it was me who took you under wings to help you through your distress, problems, to give you someone who cared to comfort you when you were goig through the toughest times - untill word started to spread. then people started to comfort you and you left me again. wherever you are right now, i hope you have experienced the same thing and during that time i hope you could reflect on the clear things you have done to me.

♥ moini

LETTER #18: THE PERSON THAT YOU WISH YOU COULD BE 

theres quite alot of people i want to be in terms of talent, intelligence and beauty. 

Dear the person that i wish i could be,

i wish i could be, pretty, smart and popular like you. i may as well be the exact opposite, apart from my sex. even though its not always good to be popular and loved, because there are always people trying to being you down, but one does dream what she doesnt have. you, loved, never alone, smart, appreciated, what ever happens or when ever you might need something, you will get. people will get out of their ways to bring you what you want or to lick your shoes when you need them too. i want to look in the mirror and not puke too. you will even tell me not to worry or theres always worse things. YOU dont know because youve never felt these sad emotions before. thats the thing i dont want to be about yout, and thats ignorance, your ignorant of other people thats lesser than you. their feelings. other than that, you possess many things i dont have. i may wish to be you, but im not jealous of you. you just make me feel uber shit about myself.

♥ moini 

Dear someone that pesters my mind,

you are currently nonexistant, but when you indeed become a burden of my mind, i hope you will politely gtfo (: LOL LOL jk when you do, i hope youre someone that pesters me in a good way.

♥ moini 

1:37 PM

the days.