♥ Seventeen Forever

actually there are quite a few fuckers who have caused me alot of pain, so i guess ill have to address them all(: there might be a tad abit of swearing, and i shall apologise in advance and if your not old enough, please alt+f4 and exit safely out of this page. thank you.

because of your fucking ignorance and your stupid acts you have destroyed my sophomore life with no evidence i have ever written a book about a few of you low lives. no, you couldnt even prove it was me, yet you shifted every single blame on me while protecting the more prettier people. did this really make you seem more superior? what have i done to you that made you step on me to the extent where suicide was an option. especially when one of you i though was a friend. as for the desperate guys that were involved, might as well go get a vasectomy. i will never forgive you. unless all of you get on your knees and beg or forgiveness as you physically forced me to do. i dislike you, but i dislike you so much its almost hate. however, you also proved to me the loyalty of a few surrounding friends, who gave me no warning whatsoever about the abuse that was planned to physically hurt me. i cannot trust them anymore and i never will trust them again. i will not forget. two of you might seem like youve changed is acting like nice friends to me, i will forever see you as fake. fake to an extent that i itch to be fake back, and sometimes i do. this is all the words you can get from me. that is all.

i dont need your forgiveness, everything i do is for a reason. LOL JK nobodies that perfect - unless youre fortune teller or something of that sort, but yes, most of the things i do is for reason and for your own good. anyway i hope you will forgive me for saying the wrong thing, because i thought you stuck with the story we planned at school. im sorry. i ruined your permission and you plans for that night and i feel utterly shit about it. no matter what you said afterward about not worrying about it, i know you wanted to go. i could see it, i could feel it. it was kinda obvious too, not just to me. i hope you could forgive me. i hope you can tell you you forgive me, instead of telling me you dont care or you werent angry at all, but you were. i know this isnt a really big thing, but i still hope you could forgive me, and i swear it will never happen again. LOL. seriously.