♥ Seventeen Forever

i have decided to take on a challenge. a 30 ~~day~~ post blogger challenge. LOL yeah it was meant to be 30 days, but considering all the assessments, not to mention trial exams approaching i dont think ill follow each and everyday. actually this challenge i felt abit queasy to take on coz... you guys will see for yourself.. in a minute or two or maybe in a second... it can get quite personal. however on the bright side, i am guaranteed to exceed 100 posts, finally because im currently standing on 75 posts. LOL

Letter 1 — Your Best Friend
Letter 2 — Your Crush
Letter 3 — Your parents
Letter 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Letter 5 — Your dreams
Letter 6 — A stranger
Letter 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Letter 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Letter 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Letter 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Letter 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Letter 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Letter 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Letter 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Letter 15 — The person you miss the most
Letter 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Letter 17 — Someone from your childhood
Letter 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Letter 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Letter 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Letter 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Letter 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Letter 23 — The last person you kissed
Letter 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Letter 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Letter 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Letter 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Letter 28 — Someone that changed your life
Letter 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Letter 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

before i start this letter... to be honest i dont have a best friend... LOL first post had to be fail. mainly i have close friends, but i guess not close enough to be bffs. however if i did have one, my letter would sound abit like something like this. no actually ill just write to anonymous saying what i want as a best friend? i dunno ill just write what i flow onto. LOL.

i know i dont have you right now, but i hope the day i do i would be able to finally have someone to lean on, and to not compress everything inside of me until in on the verge of suffering from depression. i hope it to be the day where we could be there for each other and listen to each other, not be jealous or superior over one another. to be happy, sad, excited, afraid - anything - for each other. i hope that when i unload on you, you wont get pissed or annoyed, but to understand. it doesnt matter if your a boy or a girl, i hope you can hurry so i can finally experience what other people have of security and knowing there is always someone there for you, when you need a shoulder to cry on or when you know no one else would understand, because right now i feel like breaking. someone i can entirely trust. i bet you would be amazing.

RANDOM QUOTE: i love walking in the rain because no one can see me crying. - Rowan Atkinson