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therefore, i am. 
♥ heymoinichinese+russian+sweedish i made this the year i turned a young age of seventeen. DISCLAIMER: i do NOT own any of the pictures i post, unless i state the fact. i obtain pictures from tumblr sites and weheartit.com |
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Sunday, May 16, 2010
tear drops on fifth avenue. i am feeling sad... "but you always seem like your having fun!" - fun, maybe, but what goes on in the inside is what nobody considers. to me, fun and feelings dont come together. when i feel down, yes it may affect my performances, but i can still kick myself into enjoying things, slightly with a drag. as for feelings, nothing can alter or change it unless i have changed it or made it right. then, why is it always ME who has to set things straight? because i want it that way. but how come other people can sit back with their problems most of the time and have others fix it for them. how do i know? because most of the time, it feels like i have to step in to not wreck a bond or relationship. i guess people play up to it knowing that i would make the move. its not fair. my trust ebbs away in these situations, the team members never co-operate. meeting half way? no, not anymore. grr, whenever i do something theres always something that would make me depressed because its either ive stuffed something up or there is some sort of disappointment that makes me feel as though im not as good as other people. is it regret? but for what? many things that i dont really know of. - i just want someone to talk to. really talk to. and to know they would be there for me.  this is suicide season. weather is finally getting colder, temperature shouldve started dropping two months ago when autumn began to creep in. i am cold right now. stupid metabolism, why did you have to screw up so bad): my dog scratched me on the wrist when i was washing him, and now i look like i cut myself. that is all. ♥ moini Labels: ):, FML, oli sykes, picture + (9) click here if youre super cool(:10:42 PM
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the days. click: FOLLOW ME!(: escape. facebook.♥ tumblr.♥ bebo.♥ ASPIRE Aspiring Film Maker. Media Arts and Production student. I love reading the goofs on imdb.com :) film is my language. Sci-fi. I like staying at home most of the time, not really a city goer or late-night partier. I apologise if that sounds vaguely mundane and boring to you. I like to read and just being with my guitar. I would enjoy nothing better than to sit at home with donuts, fairy bread, pizza and sushi to watch movies. Other than that, i wouldn’t mind occasional festivals and visits to the theme park. When I buy DVD's, I always get the 2 disc editions, because I love all the behind the scene footages - it amazes me everytime :) I like seeing new things and experiencing it - just for the thrill of it. But, im not great with fears so I tend to shy away from those… |