♥ Seventeen Forever

ok guys, i have to authorise about 34 more posts before i clock the milestone of 100. that is quite a long way to go. frikkin' loooong way to go.

anyway in the mean time... AND WE WERE JUST KIDS IN LOVE, the summer was full of mistakes we wouldn't learn from, THE FIRST KISS STOLE THE BREATH FROM MY LIPS, why did the last one tear us apart?

i was wondering whether to put this blog on private... i only publicly opened this because i had some slight troubles with passwords and people hacking in to read my posts. however, if i do, i dunno what im going to do about my followers (LOVE you guys!) coz i wont have their emails to send them the invite. ill see how it goes(:

bought a pink USB today(: i find it astoundingly pretty(: and it was quite cheap for a 4GB. it was funny too when i bought it. i had to get a worker there to unlock the lock that secured the USBs to prevent people from stealing it and then he brought it over to the cash registers. so i walked around a bit and found a pretty pink liquid highlighter and made my way over to the cash register to pay and when the lady served me she said "the USBs yours too, isnt it" and i was said "yeah, how did you know?" then she points to the pink highlighter that was in my hand and smiled. then i awkwardly smiled and said "ahh, you know... girls." LOL yeah, shyyt she was onto me... LOL and then she started to talk about show she spent heaps on pretty stationary there too as i finished paying.

thats probably all i have to say for this post, dont really feel like posting other stuff. apart from having weird, unimaginable dreams every night since the previous misadventures... but now there are several doors to places down rabbit holes and empty homes of The Three Bears. people dancing on quick sand, constant falling over and frequently ending up at the edge of things. going.insane.

i feel extremely cut. feel so awful these days, have feelings of not wanting to talk to anyone, constantly have my earphones glued to my ears, ignoring the world. and if i do talk now, im really boring... i want to keep to myself.

be there for me... i wish us to be so in sync, so built in connection that we think as one, so in sync that our understanding of each other is deeper than the vast ocean, further than the universe. be everything for me and ill be everything for you.

sometimes when i say "im okay", i want someone to look at me in the eye, hug me tight and say "i know youre not".