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therefore, i am. 
♥ heymoinichinese+russian+sweedish i made this the year i turned a young age of seventeen. DISCLAIMER: i do NOT own any of the pictures i post, unless i state the fact. i obtain pictures from tumblr sites and weheartit.com |
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Monday, May 24, 2010
The End. i really, really, really, really want to escape everything. i am constantly overwhelmed with great sadness and terrible sorrow which leaves me only to curl up under my blankets at night, hoping the next day wont be as bad. it feels like no one can help, nothing can change. i want to talk to my rents but, i wish they would understand my teenage mind, i know what they ask me to do is for my own good. but, when i miss chances now, will i ever get them back? most likely not. i want to tell them things i cant tell anyone else, because they are probably the people i can really talk to and be there for me when no one else can... but i cant. so i keep things in until there is no more room left to breath. grr sometimes i get so fed up with things, that i begin to wonder why i get so upset and worked up - i dont even know. it just feels like i need to feel that way - for legit reasons, mere excuses or for no reason at all. i want to cry, but sometimes it comes out in anger. so i lash out at things and thrash around. i dont even know why it comes out in anger. anger at myself, probably. and i just cant let go. i am afraid. when this happens i try to hide, so they - anyone - wont get hurt from my actions or cutting words tear from my trembling mouth. but some have hurt me, some people have hurt me. and sometimes my eyes just start watering on its own accord. my brain doesnt know it, but my heart gets heavy and sinks. i have so much sorrow inside you could never reach.  potential boyfriend material - take me away. the song ♥ The Maine - Into Your Arms ♥ moini secret #1: i dont like taking photos with skinny people. LOL Labels: ):, deprivation, hidden, link, picture, secret + (6) click here if youre super cool(:8:10 PM
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the days. click: FOLLOW ME!(: escape. facebook.♥ tumblr.♥ bebo.♥ ASPIRE Aspiring Film Maker. Media Arts and Production student. I love reading the goofs on imdb.com :) film is my language. Sci-fi. I like staying at home most of the time, not really a city goer or late-night partier. I apologise if that sounds vaguely mundane and boring to you. I like to read and just being with my guitar. I would enjoy nothing better than to sit at home with donuts, fairy bread, pizza and sushi to watch movies. Other than that, i wouldn’t mind occasional festivals and visits to the theme park. When I buy DVD's, I always get the 2 disc editions, because I love all the behind the scene footages - it amazes me everytime :) I like seeing new things and experiencing it - just for the thrill of it. But, im not great with fears so I tend to shy away from those… |